He Touched Me

This group should be signed to a recording contract. I had goosebumps all over me listening to their joyous and spirit-filled singing. They shine with the love of Christ in their hearts as they sing.

I am so excited to share with you that my Lord touched me today. My wife, Karen, as many of you know, is preparing to begin her Master of Divinity training this January at Trinity College in the University of Toronto. She needs to send her transcripts from a postsecondary school she attended. The school’s web site makes it difficult to know how students can get their transcripts. On one of their sites the phone number was the wrong number. Karen is growing more frustrated. She finally gets the required information, but the process of obtaining it exhausts her. Given that she has been battling a bug and a sinus infection too for over a month, you can understand the way she is feeling.

I went upstairs to have a bath. My bathtub is my prayer closet. It is here as I listen to reflective music, that God speaks to my spirit the most. There is a strong leading in me to sing songs to calm Karen down.  A peace comes over me.

The Holy Spirit speaks to my heart.”Kevin, I know your throat is sore from your sinus infection. Don’t worry about how you will sound. I’ll give you the voice you need. I’m calling you to minister in song to my child, Karen.”

I started singing The Lord’s Prayer. I couldn’t at first believe how much better I sounded than ever before.  The words come with a sweetness mixed with a delicate power unlike I have ever experienced. The Amen at the end shocks me at how it has a deeper resonance and fullness than ever before. I think to myself. This has to be God’s work. There is no logical explanation for me being able to sing with more power as I’m recovering from a respiratory bug and sinus infection.

I call out to Karen from two flights of stairs up from her. “Darling, did you hear me sing?” She says with a growing peace in her heart, “I did. It was so beautiful. I feel at peace.”

I could feel darkness leaving our home and light coming in.

When my Lord touched the singing voice He gave me, He did something even more wonderful. My Lord infilled me with a peace unlike I have ever known. He said to my wounded heart, “Kevin, I will heal you of the pain of your abuse from your manic depressant schizophrenic father. I don’t want you living with this terrible guilt in you. There was nothing more you could have done to help protect your mom. I am improving your singing and speaking voice because I have important kingdom work for you to do.”

I’m no one special. I’m a sinner deserving of Hell. Yet, in my Lord’s love for me He no longer wanted me as the song He Touched Me says, “shackled with a heavy burden ‘neath a load of guilt and shame.  Then, the hand of Jesus touched me, and now I am no longer the same. He touched me. Oh, He touched me, and oh the joy that floods my soul. Something happened and now I know. He touched me and made me whole.”

I still have inner healing work to do. That is the terrible thing about abuse. The healing often comes in bits and pieces. If I have read my Lord right significant inner healing happened combined with a miracle of a greatly improved singing voice.

Why does God heal some and not others? I really don’t know. To truly know would be to say I know God’s mind. We as mortal beings cannot understand the ways of our eternal God.

Many of you have written to me about your abuse. You can’t move beyond its painful memories, no matter how hard you try.  I had to forgive my father for how he abused me, because unforgiveness would have destroyed my life. I would have been filled with hate and rage. It would have destroyed my life.

I do understand if you never forgive your abuser. Let’s agree together that if I progress with prayer and counseling on my healing journey, you will join me.

Let us listen to one another and learn from one another. Somewhere along that pathway we can spur one another on in our inner journey.

I don’t have all the answers for you. You’ll probably end up teaching me far more than I could ever teach you. I pray as I read all of your comments about your abuse. I want you to know I’m here to listen.

Maybe, just maybe,  as we interact with one another, something said or shared will open up rivers of healing in your life unlike you have ever known.

Come with all of your burden and cares to God’s throne of grace and let Him touch you. Then, you too will no longer be the same. The full healing may still take time, but at least you can be encouraged you have started along that road.

I hope what I have shared has uplifted you.

In some of my future posts once I am well, I will share the songs my Lord has put on my heart to sing for you.

May the Lord wrap His tender arms of compassion around you.

Kevin

http://www.osborne2029.wordpress.com

About Dr. Kevin Osborne B.A., B.Th., M.A., M.Div., Psy.D., D.Sc., D.D.

I enjoy spending time with people just having a coffee or talking about life, philosophy, religion, politics or sharing a favorite joke or story. We learn from one another as we interact and share our joys, challenges and even our times of sadness. I enjoy reading, writing, singing and sharing in the blessing of community whether that is one on one or in groups. I'm married and am powned by two kitties named Sir William of Lounge a.k.a. Sir Lounge a Lot and Princess Catherine of Chaos a.k.a. Her Royal Highness Catherine of Englehart. Two years ago I completed my Doctorate in Psychology (Psy.D.) through St. James the Elder University. On Sept. 26th 2020, I graduated with a Master of Divinity degree from Canadian Christian Theological Seminary. These journeys were started over 20 years ago. In 1997 I received a Bachelor of Theology degree from Canada Christian College & Graduate School. Between working and studying it took 13 years to finish it. Let us pray for and reach out to each other with kindness, love and an embracing compassion. We can working together be servants with two open hands to those in need so that hate, indifference and inequality would lose and love will win. The peace and abounding joy of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you.

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  1. such an oldie, but it is a good one. Like the way they sung this.

    • Thanks for taking the time to share your thoughts. I love the way this song is sung by Men of His Praise. It’s far more from the heart than I hear from many gospel music artists. We need to always remember when we sing we should be doing it for God’s glory. I pray I always remember that.

      Many of the old songs of the Church still have a message for today of God’s amazing love for the whosoever, of how He is with us in our toughest struggles. I also enjoy contemporary Christian music as well.

      Five years ago I sang at a gospel music competition. I wasn’t chosen to go any further because the judges wanted contemporary gospel singers for the kind of show they had successfully pitched to a TV network.

      When it came time for me to sing I could not rememember any of the contemporary songs I rehearsed. I sang “In the Garden.” They all gave me an opportunity to sing a contemporary praise and worship song. I struggled to remember them. Why Lord is this happening to me? You know I won’t be chosen to go on further with this contest if I can’t remember any of those modern songs. The only hymn He brought to mind was “Just as I am.”

      There was a pregnated pause after I finished singing. Then, the judges gave me their evaluation. “You light up when you sing hymns. You refreshed all of our spirits. Kevin, God has gifted you with a beautiful voice, but for this show we’re looking for contemporary singers.”

      I felt rejected. Lord, why did You allow this to happen? After I had been turned down then I could remember all kinds of contemporary gospel songs. God gave me His answer. It was no for this show.

      Lord, I worked so hard practicing so many songs for this competition. I even warmed up my voice as I had been trained to do. The judges were all moved by the singing my Lord called me to do. It was hard being told no after I had sung my heart out for my Lord.

      A senior producer came up to me. He could feel the sadness in my spirit. He touched my shoulder. He said, “Kevin, you refreshed all of our souls. You reminded us of the beauty and power of hymns. I will include you in any future singing ministry project.”

      This was a tough letter the Lord called me to write. He called me to go to painful places in writing it. He wants those in Christian music to know He wants more hymns sung. He and I and so many others are concerned that contemporary Christian music will be focused on to the exclusion of the great and passionate faith hymns. Both kinds of music can be a blessing, but we should not be sacrificing hymns for the sake of a heightened focus on contemporary gospel music.

      I offer these hymns as my gift to you. Please pass them on to those you feel it would be a blessing to.

      Karen’s Serenade

      in the Garden

      Majesty

      Sweet will of God

      Channels only

      I Love Him Better Every Day

      Alleluia

      Walk in the Light

      Jesus, there’s just something about that Name

      It’s no longer I that liveth

      Could you please pray that God will send people who give me the opportunity to become a successful recording artist? Please let your contacts know about your impressions of me. I will be writing a piece about how there is too much of a focus on contemporary Christian music. Much of it is me focused. My needs. My wants. How about focusing on the love we have for creator God? How about bringing back the wonderful faith-inspiring hymns of the Church that God wants ringing in people’s hearts and in their lives?

      Like my wife, Karen, says so well. “Who are we giving the glory to? Ourselves or God.” Sometimes, I wonder. I really wonder.

      Blessings,

      Kevin

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