Father, I put my life in Your hands

Please prayerfully reflect on the words of this song from John Michael Talbot

For those who have not been following my blog pieces I offer this quick update. Three days ago hypothermia from a protracted viral and bacterial bug coupled with an ongoing sinus infection of three and a half months sent me to the ER at Englehart Hospital, located in northern Ontario. Since that time I have been experiencing increasing problems walking and keyboarding. My fingers keep going to the wrong keys. There is increasing shakiness in my hand and legs.  At times now I am dragging my legs in my walker. Urgent referrals have been put in motion to a number of specialists.

While this prayer is written in the singular, as your read it put yourself in as the I in the prayer because it really is for all of us.

Father, I put my life in Your hands. You know the beginning from the end and the end from the beginning. I put my trust in You, oh Lord, my rock, my fortress and my deliverer. Father, help me in my fear. I am scared of what the new normal of my life might look like. Lord, You worked a miracle on February 7, 2011 when You, my Lord, got me out of my wheelchair. Lord, is it Your will that I now go back in it? Is there ministry that You are calling me to that will require me to walk the long and difficult road of disability again?

Lord, there are so many in our world who are physically and/or developmentally challenged. They are the victims of the ignorance of others. Lord, I remember those people who laughed at the man and woman with Down Syndrome  on the bus.  Father, some people can be so cruel. That which they don’t understand nor want to understand they hate, revile and spit upon. Yet, Lord, that’s exactly what they did to Your one and only Son. Many did not understand Him. He was treated by many as a social outcast, who surely must be a raving lunatic because He had the blatant audacity  to say He was the divine Son of God. So, they who did not want to be exposed any longer to Christ’s light that showed where they were wanting conspired to have Christ crucified.

Lord, some would say that Christmas is not a time to talk about death. I should be calling people to celebrate Your life, and I am. Yet, the moment Your Son was born He was on Your path to His death.  It is in dying that we are born again. Father, it is the death of self that You are calling me and all of us to. Help us oh God, to crucify those parts of our character we hate, that we so desperately want to change. Make us a new creation in You.

This Christmas as you celebrate the meaning of Immanuel, which means God with us, be encouraged that who you are today does not have to be who you are tomorrow. Take a journey of faith and lay all of the pain and heartache of your life at the Cross. It is then that you will truly be putting your life in His hands.



About Dr. Kevin Osborne B.A., B.Th., M.A., M.Div., Psy.D. Ph.D. and Th.D. Candidate

I enjoy spending time with people just having a coffee or talking about life, philosophy, religion, politics or sharing a favorite joke or story. We learn from one another as we interact and share our joys, challenges and even our times of sadness. I enjoy reading, writing, singing and sharing in the blessing of community whether that is one on one or in groups. I'm married and am powned by two kitties named Sir William of Lounge a.k.a. Sir Lounge a Lot and Princess Catherine of Chaos a.k.a. Her Royal Highness Catherine of Englehart. Two years ago I completed my Doctorate in Psychology (Psy.D.) through St. James the Elder University. On Sept. 26th 2020, I graduated with a Master of Divinity degree from Canadian Christian Theological Seminary. These journeys were started over 20 years ago. In 1997 I received a Bachelor of Theology degree from Canada Christian College & Graduate School. Between working and studying it took 13 years to finish it. Let us pray for and reach out to each other with kindness, love and an embracing compassion. We can working together be servants with two open hands to those in need so that hate, indifference and inequality would lose and love will win. The peace and abounding joy of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you.

Posted on December 21, 2013, in On Christianity, On Circumstances, On Life's Purpose, On Loving Others, thoughts and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 12 Comments.

  1. As always, Kevin, praying for you. You are in the Great Healer’s hands.

  2. Thank you once again Kevin! I had a mentor who was disabled and she often would say “everyone has a disability just 5% are seen where the other 95% are unseen. What the enemy means for evil God always means for good.” I will be praying for you my friend. Sandy

    • Hi Sandy

      Thank you so much for your insightful comment and prayers! I feel many hands being lifted up before the Father for Karen and I. know too that I am praying for you, that you keep as healthy as possible. Please if you haven’t done so already, give serious thought to naturopathic care. I firmly believe that I am still alive and have marked improvement in the quality of my life because of naturopathic care.

      Have a Son-filled Christmas!


      Have a

      • Hi Kevin,

        Thank you for your confirmation that I am to also seek naturopathic. I had begun acupuncture with a lady from my church who does it and I have truly noticed a major difference in things.. My church is blessed to have 2 naturopathic doctors so I have been feeling led to maybe talk to them and I asked God to confirm that what I was hearing was from Him. And within 3 hours I received your comment in my email. So… I will be talking to them both after Christmas… I pray that you will continue to heal and that Karen as well will be quickly returning to a balance of health.

        I pray that you both will have an amazing and wonderful Christ filled joyous Christmas…
        Blessings for both of you.
        In Him,

      • If what I shared from my heart confirmed in yours the call to speak to those naturopathic doctors, that gives me great joy! Naturopathic doctors receive thousands of hours of training in multiple modalities ranging from acupuncture to IV vitamin and mineral therapy, that could benefit your health significantly.

        Karen’s sinus infection is improving already after two days on antibiotics.

        I was able to get out for part of the Christmas Eve service at our church. The children’s “Carol of the Bells” was so beautiful! It uplifted my spirit to be with Karen among the congregation and join in on some of the singing with my tenor voice.

        Please keep me in your prayers as I see a series of specialists in the new year. I have now had the bug for four months. A flu became a sinus infection, which became a super combo respiratory bug and sinus infection. Yet, I have no doubt without the treatment at the Canadian College of Naturopathic Medicine I would have developed pneumonia long before now. I’ve already had three bouts with pneumonia, two of which I needed to be hospitalized for and one went into both lungs.

        I pray that in the new year the Lord will have the doctors get together on a treatment program for my compromised immune system. I’ve had to stay inside quite a lot and am only now able to get out for short outings.

        We rest ourselves in the healing arms of Christ, the greatest physician of all.

        Sandy, my new year’s prayer for you is that the naturopathic care will bring you to much higher levels of health.

        Praying you’ll have a joy-filled and fun Christmas!


    • Hi Sandy

      Yes, most disabilities are unseen, but nonetheless painful and very real to those who experience those hidden challenges. Yes, God can accomplish much good through what the Enemy uses to cause people to give up. That is when our Lord wants us to keep on keeping on. And as we do that we shine Christ’s light over the darkness. Light will always win out over the darkness as long as we remain faithful in embracing and shining the light of Christ within us.

      Thank you so much for your faithfulness in prayer.


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