Words I Struggle to Believe
There are a few words I’ve been told,
A few words that I’ve heard
That I can’t seem to believe,
And some I shamefully find absurd.
It’s been said That I’m strong
When I rather think I’m weak.
I’m glad I’m special to some,
But to myself I’m too bleak.
Just one voice has told me I’m lazy,
And that would be my own.
I’m probably the opposite,
But it’s a word I’ve never known.
I aim to be inspiring;
It’s one of my ultimate goals.
But that’s a word hard to accept,
And it pains me deep in my soul.
Everyone dreams of being a difference,
But difference cannot be understood.
If I only chose to believe it,
Then maybe I could.
Talented and beautiful
Have never been easy to know.
I have a future, perhaps,
But this future is coming slow.
These are words I struggle to believe,
Words I can’t seem to trust.
But, with time and faith, and God,
I know, eventually, my belief will adjust.
By Catherine Joy