If Susan Boyle at age 47 didn’t let her dream die, then let that be an encouragement to all of us to not let our dreams die.
The common refrain I hear from many people in middle or elderly age is Kevin, I’m too old to make a new beginning with my life. It can be difficult breaking down that protective emotional wall of resistance, that keeps people stuck living a half existence. For many years I lived with beating upon beating, with the punishing thoughts of my abuse from my schizo affective father. “Kevin, you’re clumsy, weak, lazy, and stupid. You will always be a failure. Your brother is smarter than you’ll ever be. I am disappointed in you. I wish you had never been born.”
My dear friends, lies like these can only come from the fiery pit of Hell.
I want to thank my Lord, my wife, Karen, counsellors, pastor, family, friends, Dr. Heyward Ewart, who is mentoring me in my M.A.-Ph.D. program in Clinical Christian Counselling through St. James the Elder Theological Seminary and Master Christian Life Coach, La Vonne Earl, for helping me defeat those lies with the truth. God bless you all abundantly for your faithfulness.
I never thought in my entire life that my Lord whom I love with all of my heart, mind and soul, would call me to be a co-author on Mind’s Seat. Father and Marmar, thank you for this honour, this awesome calling to bring hope and inspiration to people all around the world. You are amazing people! It is a joy to have this privilege of sharing with you what God lays upon my heart to say.
I pray that my Lord will open His doors for Karen and I to speak about His love for us, sinners saved by grace. Lord, open up every soul on this earth to the joy of your salvation and the assurance of Your abiding presence in their lives.
This cruel abusive programming can set up those who fall victim to it, for a life much less than God intended. After being told over and over again you are garbage and a waste of flesh, you begin to believe those terrible words of death to the spirit. These lies steal away your reason for existence; they are cancer to your soul. You feel there is no way you can make a positive change in affirming that you are a beautiful, intelligent, articulate, giving and creative person. Then, when people filled with love help you to believe in yourself, like Susan Boyle you begin to spread the wings of your inner beauty, and fly like God intended.
God can use your wounded past to put a new song in your heart. He can use your pain to be a victorious healer in the lives of others. You can tell the Enemy that robs and steals away dreams, who vanquishes hope, that you refuse to be his victim any longer. You are going to choose to live the life that is the fundamental right of everyone. You just have to come to your Lord as you are and pour out your heart to Him.
The Scripture in a sermon my wife, Karen, gave at The Salvation Army Simcoe Community Church comes to mind. “Today I have given you the choice between life and death, between blessings and curses. Now I call on heaven and earth to witness the choice you make. Oh, that you would choose life, so that you and your descendants might live!” (Deut. 30:19, New Living Translation). Will you choose a life with death or joy?
Shout out loud and clear so the Enemy will know in no uncertain terms, that today you are going to choose life. You refuse these chains of doubt and imprisonment of the child within you, who wants to soar. Tell that Prince of Liars you will stand on these truths. I am a beautiful child of God. My Lord loves me with an everlasting love. He loves me so much that He died for me. He died to set me free from the bonds of lies, sin and death, so I could live a life of joy. My Lord has an awesome plan for my life. I will no longer play that disgusting role of victim. I will live the victorious life my Lord wants me to have. I will choose life, God’s life that can light a holy fire of love and victory in me.
Say this prayer until it becomes a living part of you. I am the child of a King. Christ died for all the wrong things I have done in my life. I turn away from a life of defeat and embrace a life as a victorious conqueror in Christ. Satan, flee from my life now! I know who I am. I choose life today, that beautiful and glorious life that flows from the blood my saviour shed on the Cross for me. Thank you for giving me the blessing of a victorious life from now and into eternity. Amen.
If you think you are too old to heal and make a new start, think these thoughts. I am not the lies I have been told. I can make a new beginning. If an 80 year-old can go back to school and get a degree from the University of Toronto, it’s never too late for me. If a 74 year-old can start a career as a history professor after graduating from York University, I can too. If a woman I know can become an Anglican priest in her mid sixties, I can too. If my wife, Karen, can be accepted for Master of Divinity studies at the University of Toronto at age 56, you can too. If I can continue with my graduate studies in counselling, missions and theology at age 51, you can too. Say I can be anything God wants me to be because He loves me. My Lord wants only the best for me.
You are never too old to begin again. You are never too old to heal from your abusive past and say, “I am more than a conqueror through Christ, who loves me and gave His life for me. I will sing a new song as a victorious healer, reaching my goals and spurring others on to accomplish theirs.”
Today, sing your own song of a new beginning with your Lord.